I guess after I poured out my guts last time, I lost interest in blogging for awhile....trying to get back to it now. My good friend Chad must've gotten around to reading my blog again recently because he mentioned the last one to me and I had to scramble to remember what I wrote. After re-reading it just now, I realized that I was overly harsh with a few things in my last posting.
For one thing, George is back bowling with me already and showing every sign of wanting to continue. And he never read the blog to find out how hurt I felt at the time, so it's totally genuine and not a reaction to what I wrote. I was being unfair. Thanks hon (when you get around to reading it.)
I'm over the whole tuba thing and am very happy playing Trombone in band right now. I was a bit nervous about it because it's a whole different way of playing than Swing music, and in some ways a lot more difficult, plus the band does some really heavy, hard music these days. But I'm handling it fine and really enjoying it. I'm even inspired to practice (like I should be) which is a good thing. I"m perfectly happy never playing tuba again...although I also know now that I could go back to it and be fine there too.
One thing I said was pretty true...I'm kind of screwed up right now. I'm suffering from bouts of depression and can't even explain why I feel bad. On my birthday I woke up (George was already up) and was so depressed I could barely make myself get out of bed. Poor George didnt' know what to do for me and I didn't know either. I'm horrible to be with when I'm depressed becasue I don't want sympathy or to for anyone to attempt to cheer me up...giving the other person not many options. I could barely talk....this was not because it was my birthday or I was getting older or anything. I really don't know what it was. But the encouraging thing was that I took charge and FORCED myself to get over it by pampering myself and forcing us to go out to lunch (which I really didn't want to do), planning for a movie at the theatre (which I eventually bagged) then inviting us over to Steve an Mike's later that night for pinball and movies. We had a really good time and by the time I went to bed, it had been a very good day. Thank you George, for putting up with it, and thank you all three for helping me turn the day around and stop wallowing in depression.
I have had a good week this week though...been feeling pretty up. So I'm hopeful this was temporary. I was really charged at band this week playing trombone on all these difficult pieces, and it continued with Sax Quartet and Swing band. tonight, I plan to get my first 200+ bowling (been planning it for 3 months, each week...but we wont' mention that.)
I PROMISE to get kitchen pictures in here very soon, so that there is something vaguely interesting to read/see finally :).
